During my two-week vacation from working, which became three and by next Thursday will be four, I have had a difficult time finding the motivation to wake up early without having anything planned. The first two and a half weeks I didn't care, but as week three neared I realized it's not enough to get up whenever your body feels like it. Life is passing you by little girl. Put away childish things and get the heck up!
Soooo with the gift of a 2013 calendar and a flaming finger [have you ever played that game? I loved it until I realized it was a cheat, lol.] + pen I have been making loose plans for the day. I have lost my pen so there isn't anything from the 10th on, but now I make a mental plan. Some days it was just one item, Clean. If you've ever been to my home, then you know what I mean, lol. Other days I have lunch dates and job searches or tennis matches to keep me occupied.
My motivation to wake up used to be WORK. Work for money to pay bills so that my family has a car to drive, food to eat, electricity, heated water, water in general, etc. Now I wake up because I have things to do, I'm living. Work used to be my daytime living and I think that's why I slept through those unemployed hours. Now I'm learning to live all through out the day. Yesterday I did my job search, fingers crossed; watched a movie and had lunch with a friend; put my time in at my part-time job and had dinner with my papa :) We visited Aunty Sizzla and it was fun to catch up with him. He totally understands the lack of motivation of the unemployed, lol.
A good friend has been poling our little group for new year's resolutions. My January resolution is: GET A JOB! I'm going to do the rest of those resolutions listed in a previous post, but this one seems more time sensitive.
"IT" is the desire to live and accomplish outside the bounds of what is necessary for life, but what is necessary for happiness and fulfillment.
It is in me.
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